I wish everyone a happy new year!!! Remember to have fun and enjoy yourself but make sure you stay safe!!! This is one of the happiest times of the year, but can be very dangerous so take care of yourself, and watch out for those around you!!! But other than that do it big!!!!!!!!!!!

Goodbye 2009!!!

It's time to say goodbye to this year...2009!!! Yep, we are a few days from welcoming in the new year. With this new year comes new opporunities, new friends, new adventures, and new motivation. I wish everyone blessings as they further themselves in life each and every single brand new day. I hope that you have learned from this year and will only take the positive into tomorrow. Don't get hung up on failures...use it to push you towards higher accomplishments!!! I'm thrilled about it all..aren't you ? I sure do hope so because I'm going to go into the new year (and out of this one) feeling fabulous!!! I only have plans for my new year to be amazing...way beyond anything I've ever experienced!!!

FESTIVITIES!!!!

Hello, everyone...it's that time of year isn't it ? I am glad to say that the year is about over...but I am glad that it went the way it did. Although there were rough patches and times where life seemed impossible...things truly have turned around for the better. I've been swamped with school and finals this fall but I've found it all to be worth it...the rewards taste sweeter than your grandmama's sweet potatoe pie on Christmas Day!!! Just a litter humor for my blog family. Have a wonderful holiday!!!!

p.s. Look at Frosty peeking out from behind the scenery :)

Human Rights Day

Today is Human Rights Day. This is the one day taken out of the year to recognize the injustices that occur all over the world all year long. Today marks to Universal Declaration of Human Rights, which came into existence on December 10, 1948. But I am not here to give you a historical synopsis I am here to speak the truth. I type in red to represent the blood of many people. There are millions of people who's lives are destroyed because they are not free. We say we are free, but what about the women in Zimbabwe who are raped and beaten. What about the women of Iran and Afghanistan who don't have the liberty to go to school and live their lives in peace, in any way that they choose. Yes, what about the millions of people around the world that are not being the opportunity to choose life for themselves...but are being told how they must live. What about truth ? I don't have all of the answers but I do know this...each of us can do something about it. We can speak out on what needs to change and we can change it by taking action!!! Send letters, contact government officials, make the public aware of what is going on. Let's not just sit in our lovely homes and pretend that the rest of the world does not exist, because it does. You see everytime we close our eyes to the truth, we are aiding to the terror that exists in the lives of many on a daily basis. We have blood on our hands....

Not Mine...But this Is.

Lately, I have been having these dreams. I dream that I am being chased or watched by the abuser. Normally I would say "my abuser", but the thing is I really want to let this go. I no longer will lay claim to this man as "my abuser", for he was not, never was, and never will be. I work on reclaiming my life and making it what I dream to be. Mostly, I just wish I wasn't dreaming about him. My nights are unrestful to the point that I don't even want to go to sleep sometimes. I rather stay up than have to face him all over again. But I am not weak. Alot of women and men who have been in abusive relationships, deal with feelings of guilt and maybe even worthlessness after leaving. As for me I know within my own thoughts that I am worthy of someone both loving, kind, and smart. Yet, I haven't really brought this thought into actual existence. Instead, I daydream of the day when I am ready to have someone in my life. After all it's my life, and I'm still trying to make sense of it. Since my life is mine, I accept that as a fact, and it can't be taken away. Alot of times I fear that someone will come and steal it away from me. But for me to fear the unknown isn't helping me to grow or heal. So as I continue to move on I will no longer say that the abuser is mine, because he abused others. He took a piece from so many other's lives not just mine. But this life that I live is mine.

Classic Weekend!!!

Hey you guys I have to tell you I had a awesome time at the Classics this previous weekend!!! I wasn't able to post anything on here about it but I have to say I took some awesome pics of both teams FAMU vs. BCU, and both school bands. For those who dont know what the classic is it's when the historically black colleges get together for a showdown on the field. I tell you there is a diversity of people there and it is a wonderful experience for all!!!

Hope to see you there next year!!!

Thanksgiving!!!

When thinking about this year, I truly have alot to be grateful for. First, for life itself. Despite the glory days and the cloudy days it's a blessing to wake up and breathe in the air of a new day, still with my sanity (most of it anyway), in tack. Second, for my family who despite small annoyances are still there, when they don't have to be. Third, that although it's been hell and high water, I'm still able to go to college when most can't. Yes, this year has been a rollercoaster, but life just wouldn't be life without the ride. This is a ride I plan to ride all the way until it stops.

Taking A Closer Look

Constantly, I think that I'm in a place where I'm not suppose to be, meeting people that (in my case) I don't feel that I'm worthy to meet. Yet, when I take a closer look at it, I am exactly where God wants me. God does not make mistakes. He doesn't give us opportunities and achievements that he doesn't want us to have. Accept where God has placed you, and what he has given to you. He will give you the land, but it's up to you to conquer it!!!

~~ Lil' Lady

Steps Towards A Better You

Hello, there it's ya girl...Lil'Lady. I'm starting a new series on change. Change is inevitable but it's only possible when we take the steps necessary towards change. I posted a blog on my myspace page, which I will be posting here soon. But for those who want to bring change to their lives....start by taking small steps. Nothing happens overnight, but if you begin with small goals leading to that one major goal then you can do it!!! Right now my goal is to lead a healthier lifestyle. Constantly I feel overwhelmed, exhausted, and running off of pure determination. Now to me that's nothing but faith when I can keep going despite everything that's going on or the way I feel. But perseverance produces character right ? Right now I am developing a self-plan in order to achieve my goal. I'm short on cash right now so I can't just go to the store and buy all the health foods they have. But I can take my baby steps by buying one or two healthy items a week and adding them to my diet. This week I brought some salmon. Also, I brought a little bit of fruit for me to snack on or eat for breakfast as a quick meal. What are your goals ? Whatever they are write them down and plan them out. Then go for it!!!

~~~Lil 'Lady

Through the Rain

People have done the best they can to stop me from going forward. But the thing that people don't realize is that the human spirit is one of the most extraordinary strengths. God allows us to keep going even when we don't want too, because of the strength he's already placed inside each of us. You know that scripture; greater is he that is in me, than he that is in the world (1 John 4:4). I'm no preacher, but when I think about it I immediately feel strong. Sometimes we doubt who we are and the power we carry because people have told us that we wouldn't make it. Sometimes we've been so hurt that it's hard to let it go and see the new horizons in our lives. But that's where faith comes in. Faith makes us strong. Faith in God. Faith in yourself. Don't doubt who you are and don't doubt who you can become. Have faith.

Living Life to the Fullest!!!

Hey everyone!!! My name is Lil' Lady and I'm here to blog about life. I am a college sophmore and plan on creating a career for myself in the world of non-profit. I want to help restore the lives of the many women who are abused and the children who suffer because of it. I write as a way to heal from my own abusive relationships and episodes. Writing for me has went from being a hobby, to being therapeutic, to being a way of life. And that's what I blog about life....all the parts of it. The good , the bad, and the ugly because although people hate to admit it life can be ugly. But that's when faith comes in. When you have faith you can make it through every storm and take every blow that the winds bring. I want you to know that life is meant to be lived to the fullest!!! Whether you have money or not....you can be fully in love with you and fully love living!!! I've had to learn although I'm young that, although bad things happen each bad can be used for a good. How ? By learning from the mistakes one has made. And as I grow I hope you can grow too.....

~ Lil' Lady